I wish I had a river I could skate away on............

Here we are again, "The Most Wonderful Time of the Year". Hmmmm.............. I used to sing that song and truly believe this is the most wonderful time of the year, and in some ways, the birth of Christ, this is the most wonderful time of the year, in other ways, the last 3 Christmas holidays have been the most stressful, angst ridden times of the year. maybe someone should write a song about that, may not be a best seller but probably one a lot of people could relate to. I hate to be so bah humbug, because I really do love Christmas, I love seeing my childrens reactions to the lights, to the Christmas story, and even the traditional Christmas movies, but at times, I do wish i had a river I could skate away on, (Joni Mitchell) I actually pulled out my Indigo Girls Live CD with that song on it just so I could belt it out!

For those of you who may be reading this and don't know, my parents seperated about 3 years ago and since then, the holidays have been quite difficult. Who goes where for this holiday, who did we spend last Thanksgiving with, how many days have we spent with this parent, yada, yada, yada. I am so sick and tired of the drama. Ok, just needed to get that out.

On a lighter note, the boys are at such wonderful ages and this Christmas will definitely be one to remember. I just love the look in their little eyes when they stare at the Christmas tree and get down on the floor and sort through the presents. Everything is so new to them, the rituals I have been doing all my life are so exciting to them, so new, so full of wonder. It is hard not to get caught up in it with them, so I just give into it and join them as they stare at the lights, or burst out in song, or as they are crawling on the floor reading the tags on all the gifts.