Stress

Well, today I am feeling really stressed out about my job. didn't really think I would ever be stressed out about church work but here I am. So much so that I don't even want to go to church. I have to be there so much, not really but it feels like it, for my work, I don 't even care about worship anymore. Which is really sad. I'm getting more and more turned off by the politics that play a role in churches. Who is where when, why aren't you keeping office hours, you need to be accountable, keep your personal life out of the church. I am just really frustrated and am begininning to wonder if I made the right decision by taking this job. I thought it would be great and in some ways it is. I get to do what I love and have great people on my praise team. But I wonder if it is worth it with the other crapp I have to put up with. I just think people are too worried about what everyone else is doing.......well she doesn't have to be at staff meeting, well she takes off days etc. I'm just tired of it. I took the job thinking it would be flexible and it was for a while until I was reprimanded for not keeping steady office hours, I need to be AVAILABLE to other staff members. When I'm there no one even talks to me and then I have people calling me at 9 pm to ask me questions. I'm sorry but I do have a life and I do have a family. I just hate the way it is making me feel. I can't wait to be out on maternity leave but I know it will probably just be more of a pain because people will be calling me with complaints or calling to find out how the sound board works. I'm just tired of it all, I'm ready to quit but unfortunatley we can not afford for me to quit and I would never find another job that pays what this does so for now I am stuck. Well, just a vent about work, just makes it harder that it happens to be centered around the church and I have a hard time separating my faith from my job right now. It really sucks.